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Here we go!

I clean up after people, much like one sister. I have a newish job, its been a month or two but I got myself job. It’s something I am really good at. Not like my grammar or spelling or how … Continue reading

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Whatever

If snappin at me and giving me the cold shoulder in life makes you happy, then Ok. If being mean to me and tryin to make me feel bad makes your day, then Ok. If erasing me out of your … Continue reading

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The Rotten Kid

I have always been happy for what my sister has done with her life and where she is and what she accomplished esp coming from were we did. There has never been an ounce of jealousy, just embarrassment on my … Continue reading

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Bad Mommy Day

That what I call these days when my mother’s death is the first thing I think about. This one did’nt  surprise me though, I have been doing some online BBS stuff in the small town I live in and there … Continue reading

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In my face

I just don’t know how to deal with “the stuff”. I don’t know how to handle the pain it causes when I have to touch it and look at it. Why do I hold on to stuff that was given … Continue reading

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The one in charge

At least before, when we didn’t have much of a relationship, we had some sort of relationship. Before the relationship between me and my older sister was …… not so close. It’s not like we talked alot and long periods … Continue reading

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Ahh the Flashbacks….

In the summer of 2010 while at work, I was helping out behind the bar and going through my fast pace of from one person to another I happened upon one of my sisters. SHIT! was all I could think … Continue reading

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just tryin to be myself, better me than someone else!

that bad flaw of mine, just can’t seem to pull my self up out of the yuck! I do feel sorry for myself mother fuckers, I have done nothing wrong. Period. I keep flashing back to- I told this one … Continue reading

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Just Musing

Sound family advice I gave to myself. Yes I know this is your town, yes you have been here longer then me. That is why I gave it up, I quit my job because I was outnumbered. When you are … Continue reading

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Does this even help anymore?

I told my son today that one of my biggest flaws was feeling sorry for myself. Today is one of those days. It is an awful feeling knowing that there are people out there who I gave some much time … Continue reading

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